Father I pray that these thoughts of doubt and unbelief in myself go away.
I don't want to believe that my scars will hold me back.
You know my heart Father. You know my passions. Only you know what my deepest desires are.
Is this what you want for me?
I'm so scared to meet with her and be told I don't stand a chance.
I just continue to pray for positive thoughts, healing, and a light to guide me out of the darkness of my thoughts.
I want to have a girls night.
You know? With real friends.
Where we talk about life, boys, fashion, sexy celebrities and what's new on tv.
I don't miss the conversations of "How intoxicated you were" one time, or how "good" the sex was.
Girls night is important to me.
So we can remind ourselves that we have value, and worth in ourselves.
So we can remind ourselves that we do not need a man to make everything better.
So we can remind each other what self respect is about.
To the old friends.. I don't miss our conversations.
I move on, looking forward to the conversations with women who have the same morals and values that I do.
I've realized that our faded friendship was for the best.
I'm moving on.
I hope you do too.
Father I pray to continue to trust in you.
Last night was supposed to be a great night for me, and it wasn't.
This morning I was filled with doubt and questioning myself, 'can I really do this?'
Father I pray that the enemy have no control, no power over my thoughts.
I pray to continue to believe in me. Believe in YOU God.
Believe that whatever plan that You may have in store for me will always be good enough,
even if I can't see it yet.
