Its supposed to be about the butterflies and the fireworks

You and I just met a week ago.
But it feels like we've known each other for so much longer.
I guess when you think about it we spent the whole weekend together at retreat, 
then that following week we spent every other day together with non stop communication in between.
I really admire who you are.
You are such a great guy.
I always look forward to our conversations and spending time with you; and I already told you I can't imagine saying bye to you.
But these last few days you gave me that look, and I couldn't do it.
I couldn't kiss you.
Even when you held my hand for the first time.. nothing. 
No sparks, no excitement, no passion!
But I can't not be with you.
I don't know what to do.
Maybe I'm just not ready.
This is all so new to me. 
I've always wanted this, and it's not that I'm not attracted to you.
I just can't let myself go there with you; and it scares me.
I don't want to hurt you.
I pray for answers Father, I pray you you shine a light on this situation so that I may see what is the right thing to do.